I WONDER

Sometimes
I wonder,
if it is worth it..
I wonder if all the clashes are worth it
if all these tears are worth it
if all the 5 am wake up calls are worth it
if sacrificing my weekends to do nothing--only daydreaming and thingking deeply
about every mess I've made--are worth it
I wonder if all the money put into laundry it is worth it
I wonder if the emotional up and downs are worth it
I wonder if the body aches, pains, bruises, and pushing is worth it

And I wonder 
If I am worth it